曾经何时

是的，曾经何时。。。
小孩不笨2我也已经看了蛮多遍了， 其实它带给了你什么样的感受？

还记得中学时期， 家里经常闹得鸡犬不宁，当然也没有那么严重。回想起，我觉得我们三兄妹并没因此事而踏入不良的陷阱，若是你问我们是怎么做到的？ 老实说我不知道。
I am very happy that we did not fall for that, otherwise i don't know what might have been. Here is something very funny about me when this thing happened at home or before it happens...

There are few things which i tried not to do so such as listen to Andy Gibb's songs. You may think i'm a freak, but i can assure you that it was somehow very true yet creepy. I think i would never forget about the first time it happened, think about it again, it really was a nightmare!!!

I acted strange on the second day at school, friends have been worried about me. I did not say anything because i thought that was ambarrased, don't you think so (if you know what was going on).

Oh! Another thing which i kind of forbidded myself from doing it was falling in love. Sounds stupid isn't it? Well better believe it. Maybe it was just me, psycho myself all these years.

Many years later... I would say after i came to UK, things started to change in a better way. Again it was just my problems. I guess it is a good thing of not seeing things that happened around you. Most friends said that they really enjoyed their high school life, are you?
In fact, i did but only certain chapters. Especially best friends, they brought colours into my life.

Make a birthday wish before you blow the candles. Well FUCK this idea!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I've just asked a friend on mine today regarding to this question whether the wish that wished ever come true? I guess the answer remains unknown.






Last but not least, i am disappointed about the thing which i expected to be that way and turned out to be not in my way... Distance? Tell me about it!!!

Floating thoughts

I've been sending lots of offline messages to you for the passed i-don't-know-how-many days.

Honestly, i started to feel bored of doing the same thing again and again.

Even so, i wouldn't be telling you this because that is at least one thing i can do... maybe

It has been two weeks without you by my side, i guess i've already get used to my usual lonely and boring lifestyle. Perhaps i need a job to keep me busy!

I kept thinking about the thing you said...

Did it actually mean something beyond than that?

I don't want to think about it but i just couldn't help myself.

Somehow the feeling inside me is telling me that i almost got that right, yet that's just my assumption.

My good friend once asked me how have we been? I immediately changed the topic.
Not that i was trying to hide something but i really don't know how to answer the question.
Probably not at the moment...


Wait (as usual)

Our time together

On July 7 2007, you arrived in Aberdeen airport. Two hours of delayed from Heathrow got my even excited and impatient, no one knows exactly how it felt but us. (Don't worry, no matter how long it takes, i'll always be there waiting for you)

The airport was full of crowd, it made me even nervous wondering how would it be when i first see you? What will you be wearing on that day? What should i do? Smile was the first thing we did, no handshake, no hug or whatsoever, I was too shy to make the first move. We started to talk a little bit, i realized i talked too much while you seem to be much quiet than me.

There was a little problem with your suitcase, i really sorry that happened on this special vacation, really did not see that coming. Thank god, the bag came back safe to the hotel on that evening.

Things turned out to be alright, so naturally. It seems like we were waiting for something amazing happen between us. Just always remember the FIRST... Whenever you go, the surroundings were partially invisible to me. Nothing is as colourful as your appearance, nothing barely compared to your existance... Something is being developed inside me, i wonder the same thing happened to you as well.

There are things which i'll never forget : -
The look in your eyes...
The smile of yours...
The childishness in you (sometimes)...
Things that you knew about (you are really smart)...
The taste of fashion...
The way you treated me (makes me feel so unique)...
There are so much more yet to be listed, i am glad that i met you.

The last night before you left, we talked, i confessed my feelings about you.
I wonder how would it be if we are not 5000 miles apart... You said to me once, distance is like a barrier that weaken the relationship between two persons. As the hours remained getting shorter, the more i wonder yet my brain is totally empty.

The last moment we see each other, i still have a clear picture in me. When we waved... ... ...
I was so strong, i did not cry... Not until last night, when i watched Pocahontas. The ending of the movie was so sad as she stood there and watched him, waved goodbye. It is exactly the same thing happened to our situation, i couldn't go while you couldn't stay because we have our own things to do.

I like you so much...