Thoughts and dream

Perhaps i thought too much during day time, and therefore i had lots of weird dreams lately...


Mom and dad were waiting for me in the living area of my students accomodation. It was my last day in that room which i supposed to pack all my stuffs before the dead line. However, thing turns out the other way round. I ran all over the apartment to collect my clothes, this is the first time that i realized i am so terrible messed!


I was waiting for my dad to have dinner together in the dining area. I kept waiting until i lost my patience and walked into the kitchen... He was there cooking curry chicken!!!~
(there were many things happened in between, i really have no idea what are they, too bad)


I went into a bus, should be a school bus, i think so. I met some friends, my brother. Something was so wrong with him, he seemed not recognize me anymore. He wore so smart and went to into a pub with his friend, an old guy.

I ran all the way to the toilet beside the swimming pool. Cause there was a phonebooth, i had to make a call to someone that i don't know. Now i seem to recall that scene, it was a club. Made of wooden planks, advanced and hi-tech. I think it is the same building...

the 'ing'

clock is ticking...
shares are up and down-ing...
many things are growing...
things in my mind are wondering, changing, and etc-ing...

so please tell me is there anything which is not moving!


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Dreams

It came suddenly. It started from the beginning til' the end. It was awesome!
I met my family, they laughed happily~
I was back to the place where i born, it was blur, but it was touchy.
Someone appeared... I don't know how we met, i don't know why we were so close, and i really don't know that we were...
The someone bought me a gift, a nice gift which suits me!
We had meal together with some people, i had to leave; others were still around, we waved and said goodbye to each other... How desperate i was to give the someone a goodbye kiss~


I did managed to send a goodbye kiss to the someone, the sweetest moment.

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Few days ago, i had another dream.

We were at somewhere like a river. A shallow, crystal clear rive and long river.
It was surrounded by nature plants. The sun was so bright and warm. Birds were flying everywhere.

We were swimming in the water. As a roll we formed, slowly we swimmed from one end to another end. We didn't manage to swim to the end of the river but we stopped somewhere in the middle of the river...

We walked on a wooden platform partially covered by a roof, sort of like pedestrian.
Slowly we reached an entrance which leads us to a big aquarium. Between the aquarium and the sea, there was a partition which was strongly built to divide the two areas. Another structure was eracted on top of it. It looks fake, but it looks so real at the same time.

The waves were so strong! Dolphins managed to swim into the aquarium as well as others fishes. The seawater slowly rose and gradually flooded the aquarium. We had to evacute as soon as possible...

There was a huge fish, it was pregnant. I saw blood slowly spreaded in the water, i can sense the baby is coming out soon! Everything seems to be very very busy! Everyone ran for their own lives...
.......................


Phew~ That's all i had and i woke up in shocked! I wish i know the ending...

7/15

生日快乐！
终于都二十二岁了。 时光流逝，眨眼又一年了。
相信心在这一年所累积的伤也不少。 百闻不如一见也发生了， 真无法置信！

二十一岁那年的生日，没许下什么愿望，因为是不可能发生的。
该不该在这年许愿呢？ 许吧，反正只求心理上的安慰。

。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。


晚安

等待

等待，我随时随地在等待。。。

什么样的等待是最让人心酸的呢？

遇见

昨晚因睡不着觉而遇见你。 望着你似傻带呆的脸蛋，我知道一见钟情不是第一次，而你是特别的甜。越看就越投入，爱渐渐地涌上心头。。。真甜！

我在此许下一个愿望。。。

don't want--alone

hello readers, it's been awhile.

don't want to be alone most of the time and when the sun is set?
don't want to wake up alone in your lazy bed?
don't want to share the most amazing things alone?
don't want to eat alone?
don't want to dream alone?
don't want to sing the romantic songs alone?

how to stop this don't want -- alone?

i guess it's you~

最后一集

不曾这么疯Friends的我，这些日子以来，重重复复地看了一遍又一遍。。。

他们的最后一集很感人，最好的就是边看便落下开心又舍不得的泪。 而偏偏就是不能。
在最最最感人的是，他们将身上的钥匙都给留在桌上。 他们做了最后的决定，离开了大家曾经度过悲欢离合的房子。。。


前阵子真的是有点疯了似的，就是少了那股勇气。。。
只要在滑鼠轻轻一按，百多英镑就从户口里扣。
我实在办不到, 因为不是自己赚回来的钱，而爸爸~

算了吧，也许下次。。。

wonder's feels

it's a kind of feeling, which you never know why it happens and how it does.
everytime i see the name appears in the list, it just awesome yet disappointing my heart...

even so, i was so scared to send a word, i was so scared that being ignored, and... and a conversation ends without a goodbye!

and it still happening... every moment i look at my computer. friend told me to delete the contact, but i didn't... cause i don't want to loose it

.......

Jeez!

she is 17. is it a perfect age for her to fall in love? i'm sort of against that! it seems to me that she is too young. she got to spend more time on studies and important stuffs, but not this! should i stop her from doing that? i don't know anything about that guy, i can't give myself any confidence to give them a chance to try! it's too dangerous! ow~ what should i do. mom and dad didn't know that. should i inform them? should i say something to advise her? heard that he is leaving to UK, well that's none of my business! i just don't want her to get hurt from that!!!.... DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN!!!!!

Malfunction!

I just hate the sleeping system inside me, cause when it reaches 12 am, i feel like i'm alive! Jeez~ Help me...

回来了

原来我不可有一刻懒散！ 好几天没来这了，实在太多东西要说。。。但它们太罗嗦了~

最近感觉到梦里的一切很真实。 这一秒的我是否活在另一个世界呢？
有时终会不停地想。。。 我昏迷了多久啊？ 幻想着身边有人在等待着我苏醒。。。
哈哈哈~ 神精病！

无聊极端 ---> 麻痹了

思念着某人， 犯着同样的错， 傻傻地期待， 天真地盼望。。。

那些歌~

。。。很爱很爱你 所以愿意 舍得让你 往更多的幸福的地方飞去
很爱很爱你 只有让你 拥有爱情 我才安心。。。
刘若英


。。。忘记他 但愿忘掉了一切 。。。
邓丽君

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哈哈！终于完成了那游戏-- need for speed underground
感觉非常‘野’！ 它的第二集以在市场上热卖，嗨~太贵了！ 要命！！


无聊到极端的今天就这么过去了。 2009的同学约会是不是快要到了呢？ 非常的期待~
会是谁放飞机呢？ 是不是又迟到了？


你 你 你 你 你 。。。。。。 会是什么样子？

复杂

今天的心情很复杂。
是快乐还是思念？ 谁知？
又失眠了，据说是精神病。
哈哈。。。反正就是想念着陌生的你。

该不会要把头用力的敲击，醒来时什么都望得一干二静？
怎样？不错吧。
~自私鬼！ (骂自己啦)

压力很大，所以掉泪。 (虽然没亲眼看见，MSN告诉我的)
怎么啦？ 我可以帮你吗？ 真的一点机会都没有吗？

其实是我不敢帮，因为不想。。。

终而言之，今天的复杂是快乐地！
对了，再一个月就二十二了~ 妈，爸，我长大了也。
谢谢您们

A moment of change

Weird huh? Not at all, cause it's time blog in English, i guess~

It's 2 am in the morning, i'm still awake... I just can't sleep!
It's summer, what a season. The daylight seems to be a lil' bit hardworking since past few weeks.

Friends are going back to Malaysia, what the hell am i doing here? Should i go back too? Yes, i will (if someone is buying me a RETURN ticket)

Hey... what's up? Nothing, just a lil' bored!

真的再见了吗？

昨晚又失眠了 因为脑海里不停地想着你 越想就越难受
我不想闭上双眼而进入梦的世界 一个你从来不曾出现过的地方
天天望着网际里的你 却摸不着你的心 看不见你的踪影
想问你最近好吗？ 但你却不怎样回答我的问题
是不是第一次的误会 而我始终并没有别的选择
只好默默地藏着爱你的心 埋葬在某个角落

相信吗？

他是一位富有的朋友，迷迷糊糊地出现，他对我的招待有如VIP
一路上的路程是非常与众不同。。。或许是不可能的事 (但感觉很真)
那地方位于霹雳的某个部分，名字很熟悉，却没到过。
我离开了


那条街类似槟州里的某条街。我漫步地走着。
看见一座石山，梯级刻在又滑又亮的石山表面上。
带着害怕及小心的勇敢，我慢慢地往上爬。。。
其实里面有间办工室！
忽然不见了


不知何年、月、日、时、分与秒
我出现在一座楼梯，坐在最高的那一级，我往上看
红黄蓝青紫的天空里出现了很多飞机，它们都朝着不同的方向飞着。。。
雨滴在我的脸上


突然间的震动，整座楼梯就朝着某个角度驶去
四周一片黑暗，雨点亮起了阴白色。
时不时出现了战船、游艇等等。
海浪狠狠地淋湿了我，感觉就象失去了一切。
迷糊的视线里看见一个码头，很多人都在等待着船只的来临。
我登岸了。雨一直下。
再次抬头望着天空，它还是那么的美！


我好想留在那一刻，永远地。。。。。。。。。。
不能！我没有别的选择。

我醒了~~

心情~

失败！差劲！什么都不能！什么都弱！什么都底！
后悔吗？还来得及吗？
。。。 。。。

它

在一片安靜 安全 寂寞的草原裡 我反着風向走着
微風正向我吹來 帶着玫瑰的香氣
全身赤裸的走着 望着遙遠的方向 模糊不清
我開始貪心了 我想擁有它 它實在太簡單
望了左方那片草原 開滿了五顏六色的玫瑰
再望下右方不遠處 數頭白馬在奔跑着
每一副景色再向我輕訴着眼前的世界
引誘着我 我繼續地走着

遺失的問題

二十一年了﹐問題出現在哪裡﹖
兩人就是不能坐着好好商量﹐每次都是以吵架為結局﹗
為何呢﹖ 不是我不讓﹐而是他的固執﹑脾氣及不信任我的態度。。。
我並不能默不出聲啊﹗
今天氣死我了﹗
我很好﹐並沒有聾了其中一只耳朵。
他何必在每通電話呼喊罵我﹖ 我又沒錯﹗
問他事情的過程﹐他卻不答﹗﹗﹗﹗﹗﹗﹗﹗﹗
我是外人嗎﹖
。。。

即將留學到國外﹐這叫我怎樣開口呢﹖