It's just almost

Hey you... How've you been?
It has been 7 months since my last post. In fact, i've got few post in MSN live space. Service not that bad, just that everyone in my list can just click on my space and read them. Where is the privacy then?

I've been really busy since the uni starts. Had my shift at Burger King reduced to three days instead of five days, think that's the best way so that i can have more time to concentrate on my studies and tons of assignments.

Many things happened since the day i'm back from Malaysia. Feeling that part-time job isn't that interesting anymore, nor my skin conditions is getting any better (it's really driving me crazy). Everything seems like a mess!

Two days ago, a thought came to me - am i missing something? Then i realised that is actually a fact........


I've almost forgotten about love
I've almost lost it
I've almost get rid of it
Oh no! I have no idea what i've been doing ever since i came back
It seems strong yet it makes me confused
Maybe i'll just let it be

幸福的鸳鸯

原来身边的朋友们，个个都结伴了。
好幸福啊~ 真是羡慕死人！！！
照片里头的两个人，左拥右抱地。。。
在冷冻的夜里，就算寒风在猛，也只不过是小意思。
是不是也很想尝试呢？
那就把握机会，好好地找个适合的对象吧。
当然，真正的爱才是最主要的噢~~~

祝福你们啦！！！！！

二月十四号

一年一度的情人节即将来临，相信天下有情人都盼望着那一天的到来。
他无时无刻地在想着要如何与她一起渡过那二十四小时，该为她准备些什么样的礼物。。。
她痴痴地耐心地等待着那一天，幻想着他们的二人世界的情人节。。。
整个地球似乎都隐藏着神秘的惊喜；在热情的太阳，潇洒的月光，仿佛都败在男男女女之间的爱。

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一个人的寂寞，是很凄惨。
往往都忽略了擦身而过的机会，就这样的又渡过一样的二月十四。
别人说过如过那件东西是属于你的，永远都不会离开你。
但这样的说法，会不会给人带来了过多的希望呢？

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人生的路程，是永远的。
闹钟一响，也就是时候停下脚步；放下一些，走了。。。
回头想象着一步一步走过的路程，原来它是那么的特别，包罗万象。
要风得风，要雨得雨；要爱得爱，要钱得钱。
当然，它们来得很不容易。




最辛苦的还是寻找着你爱及爱你的人。。。

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一海两岸的分离，需要很大的勇气来面对彼此，面对爱。
真心，真爱都在考验着你和我。
双方就象签了一份协议书，若不遵守许下的诺言，协议书里就从此划上一条无色无味的疤。。。

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冬天的情人节冷得令人心酸，无奈，又空虚。
经常幻想着两人拥抱时的那一刻，也许回舒服些。起码有人和你一起分享着冬天的爱。

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但愿今年情人节的我不是孤单地。
也愿天下有情人终成眷属。

Ever since that day

Ever since that day, i heard that someone is going back home.
Desperation in me is haunting me all the time, questions wondering around the air that i breath.
I have been telling mom that i wanted to go home more than twice, she said yes but i decided not to.
I kept telling friends that i wanted to go home, yet i said no with my reasons.
Most people didn't get my message why i chose not to go back.
Some thought that i even don't feel like going back at all... It was quite hurt at the moment.
I blame no one for this, because they don't know exactly how i felt.

Ever since that day, things started to change gradually, silently, patiently...
Ever since that day i met you, the answer was there.
Ever since that day...

Today

听着 “The Velocity Of Love” 带给我的感觉，我想你也会感觉到吧。

我的圣诞节是冷清清地，你呢？
每一年的这一年，永远都没怎样改变我的生活；而你呢？
我会幻想着与你一起度过这一天。

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It strikes my feeling wherever i go, whenever i am alone.
Perhaps that is love.
Should it be something that bothers you all the while or it is just as it is?
Think about the day to comes, when you reach your hands to me.
Looking into my eyes and say you love me, forever and ever.
How long should i wait for the moment?

Close me eyes and feel the moment.
The moment that gives chance to you and i.
The moment which i appreciate the most in my life.

The sun rises and falls, so as Love?
It comes and goes, but should i ever let you go?
A question that has been asking myself many times ago.
The answer is unknown...

完美中的不完美

光阴似箭，瑞士之旅已是过去的事了。。
大自然的周围是那么的美丽动人。
它似真又如假地引诱了人类的肉眼，慢慢地触动了人类的心灵。
就是偏偏。。。
就偏偏少了你。
在美的景色，少了你就冷淡了一切。
寒风的势力，倾诉着你的缺席。
我在寻找着那份温暖，一份最贴心的温暖。
并且也只有你能给我。

我依然等待着那份温暖。。。

it has been awhile, which i have no freaking idea why am i so lazy to go online. maybe since the day where my itunes wasn't working anymore, songs were deleted from my music folder and many problems occured to my pc. it did irritate me for quite some times until this moment. well the feeling starts to fade away cause i have to send my pc back to the factory for 'treatment'.

a call from my cool mom in the afternoon, quite few times where i almost vomit out that sentence... "mom, my pc was stolen on the fourth day after arrival..." it happened so naturally that i can't control my emotion but to tell her about that. somehow i'm so glad that i still keep that away from my mom and dad. puasa is the season where dad's business gets better every year. mom said that he wants to save labour cost and therefore didn't hire any part-time students to help him for the passed two / three years, i can't believe that i was in fact didn't know about that. how ashame i am. two funny things told by mom through the phone today. first of all, i just realized that and started to wondering whether my dad knows how to read in mandarin or understand what's going on in the news. however, he told mom a funny story!!!!! secondly, since when my dad got his own brand for all the goods he is selling in the shop??? that i got to question as mom said that customers were looking for the 'vincent brand's flour'. well i do hope that my dad got his own trademark, then i'll be a richman son. it's half passed twleve in the morning, i am sitting in front of my sick pc and type this out. elvis' voice bringing me back to the passed, still i can't feel the situation of 70s / 80s. guess i better continue my drawings before i feel guilt in tomorrow class, besides, it's a group project. should i say that i hate group project? not really, cause it makes my life easier, yet most of the time i suffered for that!!!!!

working experience at burger king is a great oppotunity for me to expose myself more to western people. ever feel that being discriminate? guess that happened to every individual. it's depend on where, when and who. to be frank, if you are bloody lucky, you sure having great time!!!!!!! which i think it happened to me at this moment and i hope that last forever.

recieving my first pay for the last 22 years of my life. i think the amount was good. maybe not for some people.

this is my working experience at burger king....

she was from other country. she is pretty, but not my type.

busybody, lazy, very miss-type kind of girl and etc.

there was the first shift that we were working at the board area, where we prepare burgers. being part of the brew member at burger king, aren't you suppose to learn? or maybe...

i was damn busy with something at one corner while she is doing nothing there, the orders pop-up in the monitor, and we are suppose to do whatever that ordered by customers. the most funiest was that she pretened nothing happened and wait until i tell her what to make...

it's very irritating if you were me.

guess that's all for now, hyperactive at this moment.

nite, andy

Guilt-Me

I do believe in Karma.
I get what i deserved.

Guilt strikes me again.
I have no excuse to forgive myself and i did not plan to do so...

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The phone rings while he was so busy packing ingredients.
I knew that because i seen that before, during Puasa.
He could not recognized my voice, guess he must be so surprised and happy to hear from me again.
I knew that because our last conversation was ages ago.
He must be so disappointed and heart broken.
I knew that because that was the same reason why i called him for the passed three years.

I am really useless.
I felt so bad for being treated him like this for so long.

I feeling shameful~

9/11

9/11 ，超非凡！

Message to you

看着你与他的爱情，你仿佛付出了太多；开心的都留给他，却把伤心的留给自己。
每次见你的时后，我虽然开心，但又非常心疼。
我真的无法接触到你，伸出双手帮你也更不值得一提。
你是否愿意为他牺牲呢？我呢？

我是真的很爱你，无论哪时哪刻；想你时就有多甜蜜，心跳也慢慢地加速。

你会爱我吗？我老实一点的问你，你此时此刻的爱，会不会因我而燃烧？
它会是越烧越猛的火，还是有头无尾的无聊爱情故事？
告诉我，你要我。。。你爱我。。。


致我爱的人

Frozen

I guess i was and am still living in the froze world of my own.
I've been freezing myself for ages, what the hack am i thinking?
Being too protective? Or nice to others while the worst liar to myself?
It probably right, my life is frozen...

三个它

(一)

他/她也许肤色，所以不满对方，并产生偏见。
他/她也许对方的眼色，所以一直生存在怨恨的日子里。
他/她也许缺少了忍耐，所以做出害人害己的傻事。
他/她也许。。。

什么东西？什么样的物质？才可以化解，满足它的需求？
他们觉得忍一时，海阔天空。
他们觉得忍一时，下次在找你算账。
他们觉得忍一时是多于的，立刻动手。

种种的可能性都有好与坏，始终没彻底填平伤过的心灵。
或许世界末日的来临，才能把一切铲平。

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(二)

天真无邪的爱，是不是很脆弱呢？
因为单方的单纯，以为恋爱了。
因为另一方的自私，所以得到名誉。

看过蛮多的爱情电影，多多少少也少不了这一套。
蒙在鼓里的爱情，彼此都是开开心心地。
所谓纸包不住火，谜底揭开了。
就这样，各往东西的路线走，距离被拉得很遥远。

只有失去过，才会有想要挽回的心态。
只有失去过，才知道彼此是同类的。
只有心碎过，才懂得珍惜。

种种的悲伤都带来醒悟，
醒悟带来坚信；
坚信带来信任，
我们最后在信任里看见爱，包容一切。。。

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(三)

事业与爱情是不是永远都不能平坐平起？
他说事业排第一，爱情第二；
她说爱情排第一，事业第二。

你会做出什么样的决定？

那么，有鸡蛋先，还是母鸡先呢？

The Smile

Have you ever seen a smile?

A smile ...

As beauty as the scene of countryside that makes you feel so calm.
As sweet as the taste of honey that you can't resist and demand for more.
As bright as the glare that lights up the darkest path of your journey of your life.
As sexy as it takes your breath away.
As powerful as the drugs that make you numb and eventually kill you silently.


Yes, i guess i found the right smile.
Though i can't really own it, it lives in my mind all the time.
And yes, that's the smile...

One day, if i ever suffered from any memory lost.
The only wish i made to God
"please do not erase The Smile i used to have."

爱情与距离

他们也许会彼此相爱。
但往往距离把他们对彼此之间的信心给降低了。

一个在东，一个却在西；白天的我在活动中，而夜晚的你却在歇息。
怎么样才能遇见大家呢？约好时间再见吗？要是有事而不能赴约呢？

是不是只有在一起，爱才会燃烧？
是不是只有距离，才是爱最大的阻拦？

再怎么多理由也好，只要一份真正的爱，
我相信距离不会把我给你的爱而受影响。

除非，爱早就不在你我心里。。。

三对一

突然间，实际的问题又再纠缠着我。
学业，工作，与金钱。 没有一样放过我。
我并不排除它们，因为它们是生活的一部分。
想了又想，终于决定了继续念书。
昨日电话里的朋友说得对，书是该念完的；可别某些问题而半途而废，然后获取一张好的文凭。
是不是真的要花那笔钱呢？ 我真的不知道。
坐在电脑银幕前的我，又再找工了。但始终没那么幸运。
有的，是我太过挑剔。是不是我任性？要求过高？
我觉得很烦，很乱。。。

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很开心，因为身边的朋友都非常的成功的踏入社会了。
比起他们，我并不算什么。
每个人都有自己的梦想，将来的打算，一切一切都好象已做好准备。
我还是犹豫不决的坐以待毙似的。

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三个月的假期已过，我还是无所事事的待在房里。要不是出街走走, 到朋友的家。
我真的不知如何是好。。。
闷不是问题。
。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

开心电话

今天拨电给一位老好友。。。

除了样貌及生活方式以外，原来彼此都没什么改变。
讲东谈西的谈个不停。 真的舍不得的挂线，但我必须这样做，不然账单可是非常“漂亮”。

时间过得很快，转眼间发生了很多事情。好坏样样齐全。

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一样的问题，是不是该继续念书呢，还是开始工作？
原来句点的原位是还没确定的。

同样的错

火花再次的产生，我反着不该的错。。。
怎么办？

目前的结局

那段日子也该过去了，所以我觉得是时候在它尾巴刻个句点。
随然如此，我并不打算将它遗忘，而是把它从伤心的里挑出来在化为快乐的事。。。

其实做人在多数是可别太执着，因为它会带给身边的亲朋戚友感到反感及厌倦。
我就是其中一位受害者，幸好没受到任何皮外伤，但就是觉得有点烦，非常烦。。。烦死！

天气传凉了，加上最近的自然泪水，滴答滴答地洒在这星球上。
表面上，它显得很潇洒；但我相信它已经累了，也许这是它为一的倾诉。
这样也好，起码将不开心的一切真正的放掉。 慢慢地，让它们溜走；象似一片飘泊在河水面上的落叶，一路顺着流向大海。。。

所以呢，我们时常都对别人，自己说：“时间是最好的良药”。
它无色即无味，但效果有如仙丹一样劲！！！ 当然没那么快啦~


原来在国外生存并不容易！ 目前烦着找房子，处理一些这个，那个。。。



在此画上目前的结局--句点。。。

三年

短短的三年并不容易度过。
喜怒哀乐都尝试过。
但往往却把一班朋友给忽略了~

选择了离开家乡，暂时将身边的一切搁在一旁。。。再见了
后来呢，他们都一个一个的离开到外地深造。
每年的农历新年，我们都会有个聚会。。。但并不是全部都出席，因为各个有个的忙。

三年里，很多事情发生。
当然，喜怒哀乐是不会缺席的。
但我却不知道事情的来龙去脉~ 无奈吧！

2004年7月15日，我到他们那里。。。 我也忘了是我的生日，但他们为我庆祝！
虽然简单，不过那是我第一次所谓的惊喜庆祝！
鬼鬼祟祟地他们，起初并没怀疑什么，但还是被我猜到一二。

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念书的还在刻苦耐劳，等待着毕业，思考着将来要走的路。
做工的开始忙碌于工作了，踏入社会路程的起点。
日子开始艰难，路程也经常出现曲折。

你忙你的学业，我忙我的事业，他忙他的私事。
友谊的伤痕会不会因此而越裂越糟呢？

selfless love

you might give up everything you had and move to another place together with the one you love. and so you have arrived to a place which you totally unfamiliar with, yet most of the time that you have the feeling of 'i'm like an alien'.
it is sad, a really sad thing which can easily turn you down at any second.
but why are you doing this?
are you doing for the one you love or yourself?
of course, distance relationship doesn't really work out~

do you think this will happens to you? think again.